My life at the moment :-/

I have my second Bio test tomorrow...and I am really worried about it. For the last test I studied a lot and I still never really felt like I understood it no matter what I did. For this test I have been studying for a week...and while I understand some sections well...others I still don't feel 100 percent about...and I hate that I still have not learned what this teacher is looking for or what I can do to study more efficiantly. I have a A in my lab and I am barley passing my lecture. This is very new to me because I am used to getting all A's and when I dont have them I feel a little bit like I am failing. I know that college is at a harder level...but I feel like I should be able to do this but don't know what more I could do..and have absoultely no more time to contribute because I am already putting 90% of my study time into this class and I study A LOT! So I really hope that all my hard work pays off tomorrow otherwise I dont know what I will do to prepare for the next test. And what sucks the most is that my professor said that our 3rd test and final are back to back. So I will have to not only prepare for a whole new section but also for a test over all the other stuff that I am already struggling with.

Other than bio I am pretty happy...I got a 96 on my last history test. But was disapointed to find that their are a lot of people that I know that use their conections with frats and sor. to cheat on all kinds of tests. I guess I just think differently than a lot of people my age. I was raised to work for what I get...probably because I have always had to anway...and it literally makes me sick that while I am working my ass off to get the grades that I get...other people are just getting them handed to them. I have never cheated on any tests in my entire life including high school which a lot of people find werid...but I think its sad that they find it weird. And quite frankly im worried that my future is going to be determined/surrounded/controled by/ and infulenced by cheaters.